thoughts up till now
there never was a state of grace, a garden of eden, perfect balance
from the momentous big bang, there was turmoil, evolution, growth, struggle, birth, death, pain, suffering, longing, loving, nurturing, creation, destruction, chance
life 'wants' to live
as long as there has been life on earth, there has been and will always be chaos on this planet. as long as there are living beings that 'want' to live, they will feed off and on each other, and there will be chaos and at moments we will feel in control and connected and joyous and moments where we realise the totality of the chaos and feel lost and suffer and yet this is As Is
and we need not suffer
and one day there might be balance on earth, and I fear that day because I think that will mean all and everything is dead, so I embrace chaos
and I also think everything is connected, although it is impossible, where my mind is at now, for me to see how, and that doesn't even matter, and everything being connected isn't a good thing or a bad thing, it's the way things are
and sometimes whilst making what I make I feel the connection and with that comes joy and suffering
p.s. as I see it there's no master plan, no ultimate goal, no special reason for being here
from the momentous big bang, there was turmoil, evolution, growth, struggle, birth, death, pain, suffering, longing, loving, nurturing, creation, destruction, chance
life 'wants' to live
as long as there has been life on earth, there has been and will always be chaos on this planet. as long as there are living beings that 'want' to live, they will feed off and on each other, and there will be chaos and at moments we will feel in control and connected and joyous and moments where we realise the totality of the chaos and feel lost and suffer and yet this is As Is
and we need not suffer
and one day there might be balance on earth, and I fear that day because I think that will mean all and everything is dead, so I embrace chaos
and I also think everything is connected, although it is impossible, where my mind is at now, for me to see how, and that doesn't even matter, and everything being connected isn't a good thing or a bad thing, it's the way things are
and sometimes whilst making what I make I feel the connection and with that comes joy and suffering
p.s. as I see it there's no master plan, no ultimate goal, no special reason for being here
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photograph of you to place with these words? it's a wonderful pic.
your expression...
i wish i had hair like yours.
oh, well, i don't.
and to your thoughts, yes, but
there IS, somewhere always within
my experience of the days, there is
a sense that there IS reason. there IS purpose, particular purpose. that in my life, i may never know if that is so, or What
it might be...
but just so much feels like some kind of magnetic pull, familiarity,
intense resonance (to use an overused word)
Hair: why do we women want hair we don't have!? I do like mine now, but wow a full head of red curls and freckles would have ben super.
And perhaps there is a reason-on-a-day-to-day-basis, I mean in my everyday life I feel love, the need to make: a lust for life, but I'm guessing when I'm dead our children will remember me....but once they are gone: who ?
and that is okay, and maybe some of the stuff I have made will pass on a snippet of storytelling, but new stories will emerge and take over....I'm here and I do what I can, now.
am thinking.
i never think anything at all about being remembered. that has
no importance at all to me.
so, what is it? i ask self?
it's just the being in wholehearted Response to the planet i love, have always loved since i was first aware of it..
maybe 3 or 4 yrs old i think?