|went to the vet's on Monday and this afternoon, it's bad news I'm afraid; Tungsten's blood values show his red blood cell count is way too high and today this reading was confirmed with an ultrasound, one of his kidney's in a bad way, all this means is that T is not well, he's lost weight because he doesn't want to eat much (always a bad sign with a labrador, the main reason in fact I decided to go to the vet) there's no real treatment, anything that could be done would only be a postponement of the inevitable; what really hurts is the fact that we have to decide for him when enough is enough|
hello Marti: it is as you describe; it is funny how a visit to the vet's made it all so real and yet here he is, still in our midst, surreal! we went for our walk this morning with a friend and her dog and T looks great, and yet and yet....underneath it all we know....
even then, things can lessen the pain. in the same way as with
human elders. we make them comfortable and sit with them until they go. however many hours or
years that takes.
Love to you and Love to Tungsten
and Love to the Love between you.
you are a better woman for it.
For what it is worth, it has been my experience that they tell us when it is time. But then again, I have never had the balls to leave the whole thing in their hands. Compassion or cowardice, who knows. What really matters is these days now and I feel the sadness behind yiur eyes when you look at him.
It seems you are making peace with your sadness in that lovely Tungsten cloth. I'm so sorry he won't be with you anymore, but may he be running strong & free with all the other Dogs Above ... and may all of them look out for us humans & help us have the strength when we need it.
I don't know if you remember, but I stitched a dog, then appliqued a dog over ripped out stitches, then pulled off the applique and ultimately left the shreddy stitches as a portrait of his leaving...