change and a comforting light bulb moment
|an excellent read: Julian Barnes' The Only Story, of course tea from the beautiful tea mug, made by a local ceramist Anne - have forgotten her surname - tastes especially good|
my, it has been a while since I last posted, not there isn't lots to tell, there is, but I just couldn't get back into the posting/surfing mode necessary for the undertaking....life without a steady job is without structure and without that I have to reinvent one for myself; I have a pretty good routine to start the day off with: 10 minutes stretching exercises, 15 minutes intense yoga session, then a hearty breakfast, followed by a brisk walk with Django! then it all becomes muddled and ad hoc: the garden needed attention, as did the house and studio! there was a family holiday in Greece, a visit with Danish relatives and all the rest of life, not to mention the setting up of my small tidying-up business, which is still in it's early stages.
The molar implant journey which lasted one-and-a-half-years, has reached it's final stage, as I now have a tooth crown since last Thursday: I am, so to speak, complete once more, although this has not meant I'm completely pain free in the mouth! oh how one suffers.....more on that later
|it's twice as wide so the units can close, and as you can see there's more space on the shelves and even room for more boxes to be added on, if we need them|
|OBK was very relaxed about it all and slept through most of the noise, moving, refurbishing etc|
the moment of truth, last evening as I was cooking and had had a sip or two of the Sauvignon blanc, it hit me, as in an actual physical opening up of head space, a sense of lightness: yes there's still tooth/gum ache and it comes and goes and maybe it will for the rest of your life, duh, life is suffering, why did I ever imagine I was exempt from that?
I have said it many times but never felt it as acutely as I did then, I wrote it down as it had entered my thoughts, in English - no kidding - and what made it special was that it comforted me, knowing that Buddha had realized this and said it out loud and that
I am not alone
You have been super BUSY and accomplished so much!!! It's lovely to visit you and the critters again. Happy belated Birthday (I had my seventy fifth in January) and deep sympathy for the pain of tooth work (I spent decades suffering but now have lovely plastic ones I only take out to wash. No more pain there!.
New York City is warm in the high seventies and it feels okay to me after nearly a month of rain almost every day. though I'm saving for a new A/C unit which will be necessary. My old one died the day after the worst heat wave last year (good timing). I've been in retirement long and spend Mondays with a regular writing group and Wednesdays in meditation with my Zen group (https://zencare.org) The days fly by. Sending love. Visit me sometimes at http://mscomfortzone.blogspot.com/2018/05/essence.html
OBK's in particular. I used to think suffering had to mean BIG
suffering...like losing a limb or something. But over time have
understood that there are also small sufferings, to lean into them,
Love to you....
and also, interestingly, i always see your studio as how my
Hut might be here, not the contents, but the general space of it,
feel of it. I don't know the dimensions of it...studio....but
imagine something of the same space
And how I love the bits of cloth floating through this post ... a continuing thread
The new dwellings are woohoo Amaaaazing...love the time spent here looking at the pictures. I had started to worry a bit about you so was very happy to see your name pop up. Be well and have a wonderful summer.
Michelle, I do visit your blog, though hardly ever comment, will do that more, even if it's just 'hi' , the ((virtual)) connection is a huge comfort!
Grace, yes the new space works really well, folks do get lost, but that also means bumping into Beings they might not otherwise have sought out, so okay then. Have measured the studio: 10.10x15.9 ft (3.4x4.8 metres) on the inside, so does it match?
Mo, it is all very exciting, and sometimes a little bit scary.....
Liz, the floating fabrics are keep me grounded, ha! so not a floaty comment
Tina, ah yes absence can mean 'something's up' so I get you might worry, and although I know saying you shouldn't, doesn't help (whenever my husband tells me not to I roll my eyes and sigh....I know he's right of course, but still) I am telling you: you shouldn't on my behalf; it is sweet though that you did and that you missed my posting, so thank you.
them again as inspiration for drawings.
Patty, thanks; I dropped by at your place to admire your lovely paintings
Oh, I have enjoyed touring the Little Haven with all your collectibles. So precious. Why is it that the tinyest things in life often give us such huge satisfaction and comfort? Blessings to you and your family.