After an increase in bothersome thoughts, stuffing my head making my jaws clench, feeling generally unhinged, grumpy and irksome, something had to give. But how or what? I felt stuck. On our daily walk yesterday my husband noticed I was babbling non-stop and hunched over forward: a sure sign Yang energy is rising and Yin energy cannot flow throughout. He's into Tai Chi and I (sometimes) like to listen to him even if I'm not sure what he's on about. Whatever you may like to call it, I knew I was not grounded anymore. During my daily morning Yoga practice I could not balance on one leg in Warrior three! I find this pose a challenge at the best of times, but now I was extremely wobbly and kept keeling over.
I cannot remember exactly why or when but sometime during the day I realised I was at risk of becoming a grumpy old woman! Oh no, not me. The mere utterance of these words and how true they rang, how my body reacted....It was as if a ray of sun shone through the clouds, I immediately felt lighter.
It's not that I don't want to discuss matters of all kind, what I don't want is to succumb to the weight, to feel I have to convert the ones who have a completely opposite viewpoint, I want to Live and Let Live.
Am definitely feeling a lot better, more energetic today.
Bring on your opinions, news and ill-informed utterances, I will take it all in my stride. We can share, have heated discussions, agree to disagree. Afterwards I will be able to let it go.
Now for more fun subjects. I wanted to attempt filming me as I paint, or rather record the actual painting. I do enjoy watching those reels on Instagram. Not wanting to bother with sawing and screwing, I rustled up a bamboo-wirethread-tripod (previously used as a plant stake) and managed to wriggle the phone in:
the paint results:
more of what I like to call simple collages and a green-fingered Hare, whereby I painted over bits of text on the invitation
they are all for sale in my webshop, which you can find left by clicking on Django
'Walking' 11 x 14 cm
'she has something to hide' 11 x 14 cm
'Simple Dog' 11 x 14 cm
addendum: after a walk this afternoon with close friend, during which I shared my thoughts as stated here and in previous post, she ensured me it is a good thing I care, care enough to want to utter my opinions, join in discussions and try to seek out truths, but she added, 'you are sensitive and stuff permeates your skin, you're not like a lot of people who can let things slide off their backs' I realise she has told me this last bit before and I have tried to protect myself....hmmm, let's hope I remember